Himitsu no Sensou
Change everything you are and everything you were
 
28 October 2014 @ 10:37 pm
[this writing is on the messy side]

[Filter: The Adveni]

The opium. Is there a new shipment yet? We've a lot of people who need it and Silas said there would be a clean shipment today. A lot of our people need it. They need it now.
 
 
Mood: sick
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 10:02 pm
[Filter: Private]

How do you even say something like --

Errrrgh.

Maybe I should just keep quiet? Maybe he'll think I'm being jealous. Maybe it's awkward. I sure feel awkward asking about it, and -- and it does seem sort of --

No! No.

This is so difficult! Why didn't anybody ever just tell me this would be this difficult when I started messing it up in the first place?

[Filter: Sawyer]

So!

You, er, seem happy! That's good. I mean. It is! I just thought I should -- say that I'm happy for you, or. Something.
 
 
Mood: embarrassed
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 10:02 pm
[Filter: Private]

He's right. I want to think that they're all in then wrong, and evil, and that no one but them could possibly do something so terrible, but it's not true. We're all just doing what we are supposed to. Even me. If any one of us were in the position those priests were, we would do the very same thing. We don't have a choice.

I know I'd do anything to make the voices stop. Anyone else would do the same.
 
 
Mood: uncomfortable
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 09:57 pm
[Filter: Ciphercrew]

I think there's almost as many books in here as there are in the library! I still haven't seen anything that even looks like a journal, besides that first one we found ...

Are you sure it would be in here? Maybe she could have hidden it somewhere else!
 
 
Mood: busy
 
 
29 October 2014 @ 02:49 am
[Filter: Scott]

I've gone back and forth on how to handle this, and you'll be glad to know that I've decided it would be silly to send a thank you through Christopher when I know perfectly well you can and will read this on your own.

So, thank you.
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 11:16 pm
[Filter: Karlesta, in Atsirian]

This business with Aes...

Do you need my help, Karlesta? I ask that very sincerely, and I offer that help freely. But this is your affair. For better o And I don't want to be seen as interfering. The Prophet tries to stay out of pure politics when at all possible...

It is your choice.

[Filter: Lawrence and Naelene, in Trade]

I need to ask you some questions.

Miss Naelene's Trade is, I think, not very good? She will most likely follow alone and translate later.
 
 
Mood: busy
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 08:14 pm
[Filter: Reiz and Edalene, in Atsirian]

I honestly expected better of Urian than this.

Penitent one moment, and urging action the next. "I refuse to let Dalphora suffer under these accusations." Ignoring that Dalphora is suffering because he brought this forward. His sister is suffering. People are calling for her head in the streets. Every day that goes by makes them even louder. And the best he can do to put it at ease is to suggest that his own daughter could return Cresyn to glory?

It's cruel. It's ignorant, and cruel, and he has to be aware of that.

[a pause here]

... Reiz. How is Aes doing?
 
 
Mood: pensive
 
 
29 October 2014 @ 01:14 am
[Filter: Cassidy]

How are things, dear? Mydra indicated she would have the royal guard deployed, or something close. You should be safe ...

I'm sorry about all that. Those girls ... they deserved better.

[Filter: Franelcrew]

Firstly, how is Forbes?

Secondly, has anyone from the palace reached out to you at the townhouse, yet? If you're even still there at all, which I could hardly blame you if you were not. You all need a plan to stay safe, right now. There's likely to be more trouble, especially if they're given opportunities to take advantage of.

Maeve, Jack, Mydra indicated that she would be speaking with the two of you in particular, so if she hasn't yet -- please do prepare yourselves for that.
 
 
Mood: angry
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 07:40 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

i couldn't sleep at all last night. every time i thought i would finally drift off to sleep, i could have sworn i heard it again.

how could something like that happen here? what are we supposed to do now?
 
 
Mood: tired
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 09:23 pm
[Filter: Terrance]

If you've regained consciousness I'd like to have a conversation.
 
 
Mood: nervous
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 09:20 pm
[Filter:... Sir Scott]

I...

I believe that I have... ascertained why you were able to arrive at the Stone Garden Estate so quickly. You read it here, didn't you? A silent watcher...

One of them, then.

You have to be, I... why else just read along in silence? But you knew I knew Fayre personally, and you knew I was speaking to her -- "tell Fayre her friends are here." How could you possibly know that I had a direct line to the High Princess... unless you saw me write to her.

... you saved us. You saved me.
 
 
Mood: indescribable
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 09:17 pm
[Filter: Sawyer]

I...

...

I know -- I know what you're thinking. I'm thinking it too! How can I not be? I...

What can I do? I... seeing you sad, it's killing me. That is, you should be sad! Sad things happened! People died! I just...
 
 
Mood: sad
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 09:15 pm
[Filter: Ciphercrew]

This section I've been working on seems to be coming into focus with some interesting results. I decided to translate some of these last sections that fall after the last one in Kilian, and it points to something.

"It's gotten so bad that I can't leave the house. I must continue to fight though. I can't let them win. They can't take Baethan from me and my family. Millerna must continue this fight too. I hope she'll keep this going. Her own secret records will keep this investigation going.

I wish I had been able to do this on my own, but now I need her to be strong. I need her help. I need her to continue forward."

There must be a hidden record that Millerna kept. Something akin to these two.
 
 
27 October 2014 @ 10:02 pm
[Filter: Christopher]

Sorry. Didn't hear about the other attack until it was over.

Mydra is cleaning up the rest. I wish Cassidy had used a filter for that, but so it goes.
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 12:49 am
[Filter: Jace]

... do you want to talk about it?
 
 
Mood: angry
 
 
27 October 2014 @ 10:41 pm
 
[Filter: Fayre]

Your mother is alive and well. Three of your girls are dead. Susana, Bridget and Jenine. I have not seen to the townhouse personally, but I am told that Father Forbes is in stable condition, for now.

Did you know Scott would be here?
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 12:23 am
[Filter: Eli]

We hurt them. Even though they'll call us monsters forever, we hurt them. They didn't see Silas' attack coming, and even though he lost men it did have an effect in the end.

Their path clouds up as they realize that the road they walk isn't safe. New cards are thrown into the mix, and they step on each other as we bleed them.
 
 
Mood: balanced
 
 
27 October 2014 @ 11:03 pm
I found someone at the theater, he's a healer, he's with Forbes right now...Forbes is alive, thank the Dragons, but Terrance is unconscious. He spent all his energy keeping him alive with a staff, it looks like. And they're moving Forbes now...I think he'll survive! Terrance worked so hard, and I know the other healers will, too!
 
 
Mood: anxious
 
 
27 October 2014 @ 11:19 pm
[the page is covered in blood]

Fuck

Fuck they got Forbes hes fucking

WE NEED A HEALER

SHIT

I --

Shit

Shit

Loki! I -- fuck hes bleeding out look theres a staff in my wardrobe in my room you have fucking got to go get it RIGHT NOW he is going to die!!!!!

SOMEONE GO TO THE HOUSES
 
 
Mood: indescribable
 
 
27 October 2014 @ 08:39 pm
Man, does anybody else hear that noise? It sounds like -- and yeah, trust me, I hate to say this, but it sounds like there's something in the walls. Back in Hanalan people would say oh, that's just the house settling! But I didn't think big nice houses like this did that, either.

Am I just going crazy? Maybe I'm imagining it!

Or -- or maybe this thing with Fayre's mom just has me paranoid? I bet that's it. That's got to be it.
 
 
Mood: confused
 
 
27 October 2014 @ 10:16 pm
[Filter: Elijah]

Do you see how they only talk about one of them in public? A storm builds outside their own fortress too, and they're so quiet. I wonder if they even know yet.
 
 
Mood: hopeful
 
 
28 October 2014 @ 01:09 am
 
[Filter: Mydra]

If you let them kill my mother, I will destroy you.
 
 
27 October 2014 @ 09:51 pm
Oh Dragons.

We -- we need help.

Susana -- oh, Dragons. Dragons, Susana. She was never -- she was never just a maid, was she? I went up into the room, the priest was with Lady Lisa, he -- he put a lump of sugar into my lady's tea, it was just sugar, I didn't even think it was strange that he put it in her tea, and then Susana -- she threw the teapot in his face, boiling water everywhere, she told me to take Lady Lisa and get out, she -- she had a knife! She attacked him, and my lady spilled her tea and it smelled like garlic.

Arsenic. He gave her arsenic!

I -- I grabbed her. He went for Susana, not me. I pulled her out, I -- the laundry, I'm in the laundry, Lark is gone and Bridget is dead, her throat's been cut, there's blood everywhere --

My lady won't be quiet!

I need help! I need help!
 
 
Mood: panicked
 
 
27 October 2014 @ 09:32 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew in Norey]

One of the guards from the gate came to tell me that there are a few visitors to see me. Ah, priests that I think I've met before. However, I'm not really feeling up to socializing with them today, and I am hoping they'll leave soon enough. I'll meet with them some other time.

If you go past them on your way out this morning please don't invite them in.
 
 
Mood: nervous
 
 
27 October 2014 @ 08:57 pm
[Filter: Sawyer]

Good morning.
 
 
Mood: happy
 
 
27 October 2014 @ 08:51 pm
Oh, well.

I suppose that's nice.

Some local priests have come offering to help Lady Lisa today. One is going to sit with her while the other helps Lark and Bridget with the laundry. That's... incredibly kind of them. It's rare that you actually -- well, that you see priests actually doing things. I'm used to a lot of pious talk and wicked deeds. I would think in an area of the city as this, they would have plenty of high class men whose money they could take to offer them absolution for the things that they go to Colndor to do...

... but this is very -- unexpected.
 
 
Mood: pessimistic
 
 
25 October 2014 @ 11:07 pm
Well, we're here! Officially here, anyway, and just in time. I mean, I'm used to flying a long time but that was sure exhausting. It's good to see everyone, too, it feels like it's been more than just a year.

That light, though, man that was crazy. Don't think I've ever seen anything like it before! Ah, but at least we're indoors now. Good food, too! Lady Jayne, Lady Labhri, thanks for taking us all in!
 
 
Mood: cheerful
 
 
25 October 2014 @ 09:52 pm
I can't believe how fast this month has gone. It seems like just yesterday was the Festival, but now October is already more than half over. New Years Day is going to be here before we know it, and there's still so much work to be done. I've been meeting with so many people helping plan the wedding, and I can hardly keep them all straight. There's decorations both for Milesia an-, and the cake, and musicians for the ball, and invitations that need to be made still. I don't know how we're going to get it all done in time. Three months is hardly enough time to plan a normal wedding, let alone a royal wedding.

I really wish that I could share these drawings that Miss Kristin made for the dress she is making me. We have been working on the design for my wedding dress ever since the Festival, and she finally has the finished design and it's so beautiful. Every time I think she can't possibly top the last dress she made, she comes up with something even more wonderful. Just the drawings themselves must have taken hours for her to finish. They're so much more detailed than the ones she made for my past dresses. I wish I would have thought to give her my journal and draw them in here, for everyone to see, but then it wouldn't be a surprise and what if the filter didn't work and Prince Ian got to see the dress early? That would be just awful and it'd ruin everything!
 
 
Mood: busy
 
 
26 October 2014 @ 02:41 am
 
Okay, well, if they didn't see that, I don't know what else we could have done! That was bright! Someone should probably tell these people to get back, we wouldn't want someone to land on them ...

I wish they could just write! I mean, I know why they can't, but this would be so much easier!
 
 
25 October 2014 @ 10:58 pm
[Kilian]

Aoife! I know you've been doing stuff with some journals in the cellar and stuff but I'm bored and I really want to watch you work on a book, again!

... um, I sort of tried to see if I could get a sense of their being an artifact here. I went outside this morning. Alone. I thought maybe...

I didn't sense anything, though. Not a thing at all. So maybe it's actually not --

Wait.



Gabe! Do you -- do you hear that?!
 
 
Mood: scared
 
 
22 October 2014 @ 09:41 pm
[Filter: Aileen]

So I took your advice!
 
 
Mood: better!
 
 
22 October 2014 @ 11:32 pm
[Filter: Elijah]

Are we attacking anyone? I was reading the cards, and I just got a very strange outcome when I read for Lord Silas. He's bringing us to bear against an object of beauty? Maybe I read too far into the future ...
 
 
Mood: surprised
 
 
22 October 2014 @ 08:42 pm
Hmm, I think we're going to need another compress for Kail. I heard you groaning over there, Kail!

That one on your arm is looking pretty nasty. Druce, you should bring around another poultice if you can.
 
 
Mood: chipper
 
 
22 October 2014 @ 10:16 pm
[Filter: Lydia]

I ... I might have a really embarrassing question!
 
 
Mood: nervous
 
 
22 October 2014 @ 10:06 pm
[Filter: Glenn]

Um...

I've... I've been good. Things didn't get terrible again when you left. I'm glad! I was worried. It's so irrational! But it really did seem that you made everything better just by being there, and...

Um. Ned has her good days and her bad days, but it's not so terrible as it was. And Friska and I are still talking! I do miss all the decorations, though. We have to wait another whole year until next Festival. I wonder if we'll be able to spend it in Byron?

... have you been well, my lord?
 
 
Mood: worried
 
 
23 October 2014 @ 11:48 am
[Filter: Nicolas]

You will be pleased to know that I will arrive in Conare in a week's time. To give you the news in person, of course.

The King actually thanked me.
 
 
Mood: indescribable
 
 
22 October 2014 @ 09:22 pm
[Filter: Melyndra Destra, in Atsirian]

She forgets herself but no one else can
Maned in nature but beautiful blonde
How can a giant be so demure they ask?
This strangeness worries the lot

Where come the men to her
Sisters edge them out
No one should have this as their goal
She's not to be married here

Where go the women from her
Once she tried to speak
Now she must hide in her room alone
Her family the only escape

In those last days she forgets
She comes out of the shell
She rushes to sisters, friends she never had
Silence, thin tones, withdrawal

There is no question here
Still they question why

- Taen, Eldest son of Azshara I


"I examined her remains before we consigned her to ashes. I still feel disturbed by what I found, though I've been sworn to secrecy. The note is a rather damning piece of evidence that it was intentional on her part, but to cut across her own throat in such a brutally painful manner. No. I wouldn't have thought of her as that strong before. Neither did Azshara. It can't be that she did this to herself, but there is no chance that one of the other women helped her to it.

'There's someone else inside me. I'm not me anymore, and I can't stand it. This isn't home, and it never was. I need to go back. I don't understand. None of this is right. I need to set it right.'

The brothers are broken. They haven't truly known themselves for days. Few could tell the difference, but it was so unlike them to be so familiar. Now they've come awake, and they're bereft a sister.

How did Bree steal that knife?" - Lady Shandris.

The first is an old song that we used to associate with someone else. No one sings it anymore because it's not one of Taen's best. I remembered it after I finished my work on this latest hidden gem, this new quote from Lady Shandris. I'm almost afraid of how long the next one will take to bring out after how long it took to get this one finished.

Aubree of Franel killed herself in Cleraine.
 
 
22 October 2014 @ 07:18 pm
[Filter: Yuliet]

I can hear you trying to sneak up on me back there. You're still stepping far too heavily, and you're still in too much of a hurry.
 
 
Mood: amused
 
 
22 October 2014 @ 06:57 pm
[Filter: Private]

Ugh!

I just --

He's just going to say no! He's going to think it's all about earning back his trust and fake apologies and -- because there's been so many of them, haven't there? That's the entire problem! I apologize and then I do it all over again like nothing ever happened!

It's not going to work.

They're going to be here probably today.

It's not going to work!

[Filter: Sawyer and Korvin]

I'm

I behaved badly the other day. I'm sorry.

Again, I know. I know. Dragons. I was just caught off g It doesn't matter, does it? There's not any excuse. Korvin, of course you're welcome with us. I'm sorry for overreacting.

[Filter: Sawyer]

Can we spar?
 
 
Mood: frustrated
 
 
22 October 2014 @ 08:59 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

I could be there in five minutes if Smaug and I pushed.

Dammit, Fayre. I had that all well and squirreled away. Just... just don't think about it. ...and I thought about it all the time. But not like this.

She's right, you can't just run forever. I need to go home. I want it. The thought of someone else getting my birthright makes my blood hot, but that doesn't mean I want it to be me, either.

I'm not...

I'm not what they need.

Will I ever be what they need?

-- I need to do something about Jordan. Something.

[Filter: Fayrecrew, Franelcrew]

Well, day one was an absolute bust...

We made a few landings, Julian shrieking and clinging to Fayre all the while -- at least, that's what she tells me! I could hear it, but you can't see a damned thing and still have enough distance to not hit one another. We thought we were in the right area, but the one town we stopped anywhere near to didn't speak a word of Trade. Thankfully, Julian managed to stammer out some form of communication... they said we were a good day and a half travel off.

So much for for that, huh? Well. Here's hoping today is a little better.
 
 
Mood: crappy
 
 
22 October 2014 @ 12:23 am
[Filter: Kail, in Kilian]

Everyone thinks that the way you're acting is pathetic. And they're right. It is pathetic.
 
 
Mood: annoyed
 
 
21 October 2014 @ 09:37 pm
[Filter: Canti]

I'm getting married in Milesia and I'm going to get to ride a Pegasus and you're going to be able to come to my wedding and it's going to be the most wonderful most talked about wedding ever!

But you can't tell anyone! We still have so much planning to do, and we have to make invitations and send them out, but I couldn't wait another day to tell you the good news.
 
 
Mood: excited
 
 
21 October 2014 @ 09:33 pm
[Filter: Ciphercrew]

Would someone please come check my work on this? I'm not certain, but I believe it says something about ...

About a glowing light?
 
 
Mood: busy
 
 
21 October 2014 @ 11:31 pm
[Filter: Sawyer]

Ah...

So...

About yesterday... is... is everything quite all right?
 
 
Mood: uncomfortable
 
 
21 October 2014 @ 10:28 pm
[Filter: Maeve]

Ahh, the guards mentioned that two priests have walked by the manor a number of times in the span of two hours. They asked me if perhaps they'd been looking for me. I told them to ask after them if they saw them again, but ...

It gives me a bad feeling.
 
 
21 October 2014 @ 08:12 pm
[Filter: Martha]

All right, Martha.

I know you've been busy all day with the seamstress but I do actually need to talk to you, and it's actually about the wedding!

I talked to Lord Hasten about the pegasus knights, you see. Er well first I asked about He said that he'd personally see to sending some knights our way himself. For the wedding, of course, so that we could fly from Milesia to Eblar ...
 
 
Mood: busy
 
 
22 October 2014 @ 01:15 am
[Filter: Franelcrew, Fayrecrew]

[there's a rough sketch of a map here, with their current location and planned route marked, as well as a rough estimation of where Baethan is]

From here on, it will be difficult to adjust our course, so if you have any help to give concerning the actual location of Baethan, we'd be very grateful~ We've put together a very rough guess, based on Tarra and your travel updates, but frankly I'd rather not have to do more blind searching than we have to in those mists! Poor Julian just hates it when we turn those tight circles, and that's in broad daylight with visibility for miles~ ♥

Assuming everything goes smoothly, or at least not terribly, we ought to find you by the end of the week~

[Filter: Jasmine]

And I'm assuming by that sour look on your face that you're against the idea of stopping in to say hello to your father~? We don't have to, you know. The smaller villages will do just as well.
 
 
21 October 2014 @ 10:05 pm
[Filter: Karlesta, in Atsirian]

Karlesta...

Karlesta, I'm in so much trouble, aren't I?
 
 
Mood: scared
 
 
21 October 2014 @ 07:06 pm
I keep thinking about that last town, and how great the bonfire turned out. It was amazing how many people came out to see what was going on once I started playing, and then stayed to listen. We should try that at the next town too. It was the best night I've had since I got here.

It seemed like a nice little town. I wish we could have stayed longer, but I'm glad we left when we did. Things seemed to be getting pretty tense when we left. I heard a couple of people talking, but I couldn't quite make out what they were saying. There was something about some big mess at the noble house, about notes, or messages, being late? I really need to work on my Kilian. Regardless, it sounded serious and-

Huh.

Is that- Have we passed that tree already? It looks really familiar.
 
 
Mood: anxious
 
 
21 October 2014 @ 07:02 pm
[Filter: Silas]

Well, there's certainly upset. I don't think you realized, I'm afraid, just how many of my people were relying on those goods. A lot of them need it to keep themselves balanced, in the city we live in now ...

Will there

Are you going to continue sending contaminated shipments across?

And I suppose some of the other ... activity in the city was your doing.

[Filter: Daryen]

How is Yuliet doing with her knifework?
 
 
Mood: restless
 
 
 
 

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