In a way, I cannot quite believe that this is happening, that I'm being entrusted to do this. I should be staying here, with Felicia, taking care of the children and managing the household. What a woman ought to do. I know little about negotiation or diplomacy, but what have I done, since I was a child? Weathering my father's temper and my mother's indifference. Cajoling my sister and nieces into compliance and appropriate behaviour. Choosing my words when dealing with my brothers and household stewards.
It's only Aunt Mariana and Uncle Gareth. They will help me. Even if my skills prove insufficient, Hasten will get what he needs.
I know we have discussed this earlier, but perhaps it will prove useful written down like this. The girls' tutors expect you to meet them every Friday afternoon to discuss their progress. Mikaela has been learning simple arithmetic, and you should take every opportunity to have her do sums in her head. Catherine is practicing scales, and you should make sure that her fingers are correctly arched on the keys if she plays for you. Ah, and Lianne is losing a tooth at the back of her mouth. It will fall out in a week, but if she complains that it hurts too much, it is best to pull the tooth out before then. I'm sure Cathleen will assist you if the girls are in need another authority figure.
Theia's nurse always meets with me on Monday for morning tea, it's a more friendly setting to discuss how Theia is developing. I'm not sure if she expects something more formal from you, as you are her mother, but seeing that she will be with us for some years yet, I think building good relations with her will be beneficial.
Dragons, who threw out the flowers on the table? They had to have another week at least before they even started to wilt! I thought that they really brightened the place up!
Whoever it was, I'm watching for you. I'm going to get a new cut from the greenhouse after the show tonight, and don't be surprised if there are bear traps in the kitchen. That place needs all the cheering it can get, most days.
What is wrong with my mother? How dare she do this to me, honestly?! After what she's been doing?! Walking out with someone else, pretending she forgets all about Da, and just -- now she's trying to tell me what I'm allowed to do?!
I've never -- seen her angry. Never.
Maybe it's just Searlait's stupid curse or whatever it is, or...
That could open all sorts of doors, couldn't it?
[Filter: Marias, in Kilian]
Can we talk?
She's still alive, for now.
She lost a lot of blood. That's the only reason they're not sure if she'll pull through. Dragons, there was -- there was so much blood. There was --
-- She's sleeping. They're keeping her unconscious because -- because they said the strain of waking up, of being in that much pain, could kill her when she's lost that much blood. She needs to rest. Her body needs time to recover what it's lost. Everything could ... could go south at any moment. She could just take a turn for the worse spontaneously, because -- because her body is having a hard time recovering, and it could just all go ...
By now, you're realizing that I'm not there anymore. You're thinking about everything I said. Weighing it.
Perhaps it might interest you to know that "Eith," by all accounts, is an ancient word for lie?
I need a haircut. These curls are killing me.
Come and find me, Marias.
I've got it bad, man. I've got it bad and there's not a damn person I can talk to about it. I just had the best fucking birthday, and I know that doesn't sound bad at all, but that's because I've got no idea what to do next.
Feb 20 notes:
- l. westa must know about naysayers
- faithful tribe just arrived in clrn asking audience v. urgent make appnmt tomorrow or 22
- possible report of old blueprints to palace
- talk to a. about funding of new chapel in theatre district. bribe may be neccessary.
- reminder: write letter to r. in rzn
[Filter: Labhri, in Kilian]
Okay later when we're both awake you definitely have to teach me how to play this game better because I didn't know Prudence was already good at it and I want to actually win sometimes.
Do you mind coming by early today? Mother was asking for help with the cake, and I don't know how to make one. I think she was hoping you wouldn't mind lending your expertise.
Do you know how to bake a honey cake?
I had a rather interesting thought after Lady April's talk of songs. The Hanalan Folk have quite a few tales of Faeries. There's a whole superstitious belief about them. What do you think about encouraging it?
Okay, the pieces for the game are ready. One set is whitewashed so you can see which kind is which even in the dark. You should be able to get all of them onto the roof of the inn tonight too. Um. I guess it's going to be hard to see which shingle on the roof is the right tile to put the piece on. Just don't get into any fights about it. I'll get up very early every morning and get some of those whitewashed too.
I hope that makes nights a little more bearable for you two!
[Filter: Aiden, in Kilian]
I suppose you don't want me there tomorrow.
I know you're busy working on preparations for Arwen's birthday party tomorrow. But is it possible that you might have time to talk a walk with me after dinner, today? Winter or not, I really do love your gardens.
Almost as much as I love your company.
I'm going to be busy at the theater most of the day, like usual, but if you don't have any other plans for this evening I was thinking we could either get a private booth at the Barnacle, rent out a ferry and see how far out they'll take us now that the river is getting ready to swell up for spring, or dress up in our nicest clothes and pretend to be courtiers again and see if we can make it back into one of the abandoned houses in the royal quarter. I like that idea best because I didn't really get to cook for you on Rose Day, so if I could bring a basket and we could find a serviceable kitchen ...
But those were just my ideas! You might already have ideas of your own. That would be fine, too.
Have you been talking with my staff lately, Raezi Saedri? I'm sensing collusion! Though when they've had time to speak with you I actually can't say. So maybe it isn't collusion after all. But it does seem that way!
Oh! Yay! Mine came back, too! Ebony! Ebony, look! I'm writing, hurray!
Okay, this is a great time, because now I can get an ear right to King Gebann and Queen Dagda. -- I mean! People don't call you that, I swear! Definitely not. That's not a thing anybody says. Lord Dagda! Um.
How do you come back from
... Korin songs are boring! They're all about glorious warfare and everyone here is tired of hearing about warfare. Who could blame them? This country just got out of a war. I'm tired of singing them, but I don't know if they'd like any of our songs...
You spent a lot of time in Hanalan, right? Do you have any favourites that might go over well? This is a tough crowd and I'm determined to
get tips entertain!
I know it's superstition.
But sometimes I do think I see him. Keran. Walking down the halls. Standing tall in that room that was his parlor ... At the edge of the rookery. It's just for a minute, just at -- just at the edge of my vision, but it's there.
Just seeing him once would be -- well, would be my mind just jumping at shadows, right? But twice. Three times. More than that ...
This place is getting to me. That's what people talk about. That this place is cursed. Keran's blood made it inhabitable, that's what the rumors are. You go mad after long enough here. They all tell stories about the soldiers who left for Lahn last turn, how they were completely going stir crazy, could barely walk straight, were jumping left and right at every sound they heard, swore there were ghosts around every corner.
Is that me?
Is that going to be me?
Lord Hasten really can't get here soon enough. At least then it either will be me or it won't be ... and either way, it'll be over.
[Filter: Iseult, in Kilian]
Wait a second.
Where are you right now?
[Filter: My Family]
Ian and I, ah, we have such wonderful news for everyone, but you have to promise that no one outside our families can know about it. It's far too soon for that, and Ian and I want to make that a very special announcement in front of everyone when the time is right, but we just can't wait any longer to tell all of you. I just have to tell someone, or I'll burst!
Ian and I are- ah haha-
We're going to have a baby!
[Filter: Pillars in Rechesa]
It looks like either an accident or a dispute between smuggling rivals. The debris was certainly a boat, and any vessel anchored where they found it was carrying illegal cargo. Just a little inlet, not marked on any official maps.
Granted, that's only what it looks like. There wasn't much to find. Charred remains and a ruined dock. We can theorize about what it means for days, but there is nothing to specifically link Silas to it. Until we find a way to interrogate corpses, there isn't much more to be said.
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]
... Okay. Tonight.
I just need to make sure no one comes in by surprise.
[Filter: Prudence, in Kilian]
Um. I found something while you were asleep! I went a little bit outside the town to look for good shaped rocks. I remembered some by the road that will be big enough. I know it's still early but after supper could you become a dragon and pull them closer to the town? I should have the game finished soon if you can do it! It should only take an hour, and if you're outside of town no one will see you become a dragon ...
I can bring them the rest of the way into town tomorrow.
[Filter: Patience, in Kilian]
You don't have any plans for after supper do you?
I'm, erm, just going to write this out all at once so I don't lose my nerve.
It's not that I don't think I could like you, Aileen, it's that ... Well. It's that I like how things were, with us. I liked just ... going for walks. Talking about my day, knowing that you were listening to me and not sitting there thinking, oh, Kail, he's just so stupid about these things. And maybe you were thinking that, considering I never noticed, but --
But that's not what I'm writing about!
What I'm writing about is that I shouldn't have gotten you that rose. Not because I don't like you, because you're my friend, Aileen, and -- and that means a lot to me! But I only did it because Lawrence and Loki told me that you were interested, and I really should have thought about it and decided for myself if I was interested in you, too.
And the answer is ... well, the answer is, I don't know yet. I think I could be. But I think if I could be, it would be through ... through the way things were before. Going for walks. Talking. Playing at being your assistant, hah, little things like that ... and seeing what came as a result of all of that, you know? Seeing if ... if it naturally turned into something more.
I did talk to somebody about this, and I figure I should tell you that ... but they didn't tell me to do this. They just told me to ... to tell the truth, and to be honest with you, and then to think about this. Honestly. Which I'm going to try to do! Really. It was just advice, just like you'd ever ask anybody for advice ...
Can we try to just -- see if something happens?
And -- and if you're angry, I understand. I mean, I'd be angry too. Probably.
Well, Lady Cassie, how goes the quest to tell everyone that you're off to the perfectly ordered grassy plains of Hyrule? Still putting it off, or are we good to go? I have a wager riding on this, so be honest.
Was there ever any word on what that disturbance was, in the south? We've been trying not to worry, but I think my people are going to stay spooked until we have an explanation for it.
This supply report is pitiful. Barely enough blankets, food, and other sundries to outfit the soldiers. How am I supposed to establish an entire Dentorian quality base of power up in this frozen north? We're already behind on our scheduled allotments. It's been so damned cold.
And what can I do but sign off on it? Nothing.
Perhaps Lahn had a good harvest and has surplus to spare. I should be there in days, now. As much as I hate to ask Lady Anemone for aid, it seems I must. The "true Dentoria" certainly has not offered.
You're not busy, are you? I was hoping we could go for a walk around town, but if you're busy with the hunter's circle I'll totally understand because that's so much more important.
[Filter: Lord Rickon]
I am out of Norey assets at the moment save for one, and I need her to go back to Rechesa soon. Are you in any sort of trouble at the moment, or should I just send her on her way now?
Should we like ... talk about what happened?
I mean, look, I know you probably want to pretend it didn't happen and I barely even remember any of that night, but ... but it did happen, and I think that it probably couldn't have been that bad or I would remember more?
And I mean, we both were miserable on Rose Day and there's no shame in wanting a little bit of company, yeah? But the question is whether you're gonna, um, want the company again?
Can you make sure I don't sleep past dinner tonight? Don't worry if I'm cranky about it. I'll get up. I'm trying to make sure I'm awake for at least a few hours before -- um, people have to sleep. Also I hate missing dinner, everything gets cold and it's not as good.
Felicia, dear, may I ask you a favor?
Nothing big, mind you. It's just that Isaiah is nearly of an age to begin his training, hm? I was hoping to somehow conjure up a way to visit the Lireth stables in person, but Tarmon has ... resisted this idea more than I thought he would, and I no longer think it will be possible. Instead, I will need lists of this season's breeding pairs. If you could just send it all -- the lists and the breeding histories?
I realize it's sensitive information, but you know no one will take better care of it than I, hm? And Isaiah should have nothing but the best of the available prospects, I'm sure we can both agree.
[Filter: Aileen, in Kilian]
You're distracted. It might be easy for you to disguise it from anyone else, but something's been off all day. I realize that my prying might not be what you want right now, but you've been doing well lately. At least, so I've thought.
[Filter: Doolin + Franelcrew - Boys]
Well Now that everyone is less Would this be a good time to
I think I've managed to put something together... I think it's interesting. Something that might link the Hunter's Circle together ...?
I have it all here if anyone would like to see. Some people already have. Um. It's the longest line we can trace back in Doolin, either to our original founders, or ... at least to our first founders that began keeping birth records. ... Which is fine, but I never thought to see where the four of us fell in relation to that, but once I started with Coinin and Caiomhe ... well, I won't explain the details. You can come see if you like.
But we're all in the branches of that one tree. Different places in it, yes, but we can all trace back ...
Of course, we're not the only ones who can. The only thing I can think of is that we're possibly the youngest who can ...? Perhaps that's significant.
Ahaha, he ... I am a thirty year old woman, not a girl, I should not feel so giddy, and yet ...
It is worth waiting for someone who will make me happy, isn't it? Someone who can make me feel better about myself? Even when we don't know what the next year will bring ... But it has been a year since I thought of finding something for myself, and I still have not found it. Is there really nothing I can do except for raising my brother's children and running his home while he is away? Is that all I've been taught to do?
I watch Mae sometimes, when she has her lessons. Sometimes, she tells me of what she has learned, about history and philosophy, and I hope and pray that she will be a worthy heir but I also think, it isn't difficult, what she is learning. But I'm not a scholar. It'll be silly for me to take an interest now.
I suppose I am starting to wish that I was taught ambition.
[Filter: Miss Amalea, in Kilian]
Did Coinin do anything for you yesterday?
So, um, how was Rose Day? Did it go well for you?
I've ruined everything again and I don't know what to do.
I must apologize for keeping Charles so long. I promise you that I am returning him in fine spirits and decent shape, though if he seems tired later do try not to be so hard on him. He has earned a nice, relaxing day after all that.
I hope the rest of you had a fine day! I am still hoping to figure out which of you wrote that funny little cry for help based on what I know happened yesterday, but thus far I am completely stumped! Sigh.
[Filter: Edalene, in Atsirian]
How was your husband, last night?
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]
When I decided to do this I didn't realize I'd be up most of the night thinking about what was going to happen with him. There are things to do today, and I'm so exhausted ... but it's worth it. I think. My first real rose. And ...
But who can I tell!?
[Filter: Amalea, in Kilian]
Um. Are you up for a conversation with me that doesn't involve magic theory?
What time is it?
What happened? I just remember going out for drinks and now I'm
[Filter: Jasmine and Fayre]
Dragons, I owe the two of you so much.
26 February 2015 @ 05:49 am
Is that actually Ebony, actually in Korin?? Failing completely at operating an oven?
Oooh faeries, I cannot believe Amelie is still not here because I need to talk to her about this right now! She would be amazed! Amazed! I wonder who she's cooking for. I wonder if it's April. I wonder if she dresses up like the Mystery Knight for her and does pegasus jousts at the Eina court. Faeries. Unbelievable.
-- Sorry, I know we have a whole party to get ready for, but -- Ebony!
Times have certainly changed!
We're cleaning up now, but we'll be off, soon! I just have to wait until Mari's had enough that I can plausibly tell her she doesn't remember things clearly in the morning.
I cannot believe you just ignored me! Was that too subtle for you? You are the worst! I bet you're just going to ignore this, too! What, are you busy? Did you have Rose Day plans after all??
26 February 2015 @ 01:31 am
Sorry, Lydie. I think I'm going to skip the encores and the flooding the stage and I imagine you have better things to do, too. Dimitri and... whatnot. Who am I kidding? You have a wonderful night planned, I imagine, and I should... let you do that.
I'll be at home.
Sorry if I'm just bothering you, I'm not even sure it was you. But I swear I saw someone looking almost as miserable as I feel bolting up the aisle alone when the curtain fell, and I thought I recognized them.
25 February 2015 @ 11:12 pm
I'll just be a few minutes longer. I'm sorry I've been so, ah, distracted. I really wanted tonight to be perfect, and [a small marinara splatter]
And, ah, haha-
The next course hasn't come out yet, has it?
26 February 2015 @ 01:11 am
[Filter: Patience, in Kilian]
Are you awake yet?
nervous / EXCITED
26 February 2015 @ 12:56 am
[Filter: Issy, in Kilian]
Ohhhh, Issy!!! Did you see it? I know youv'e been buried in your books all day and I know you're probably having a crappy-ass day because that boy I know that you like is a complete buffoon but Caoibh is so smugly single and -- geeez, he wrote a song! He sang me a song and it's this beautiful Hanalan style ballad and it's called Lantern in the Mists and I think I'm the lantern in it -- maybe! I'm bad at metaphors! But I think so!
And I'm so happy! Issy! Be happy! Just for me, for a second!!
He likes me.
26 February 2015 @ 03:46 pm
It's different this year.
It starts the same as it does every year. Men pacing around the house or the village, waiting for when their women ... or partners are ready so they can get around to the point of the entire day. And then eventually, they pair off, and sometimes there is a surprise, an unexpected gift or, well, unexpected absence of a gift that makes the day memorable.
But it's different when the woman you want to see emerge from the kitchens is half a world away. It feels like I've been robbed, and isn't that ridiculous. It's just a day that comes every year with a tradition that is so old that no one knows how it started. But I do feel robbed, as if I'm missing a chance to show her that we can be part of this, that writing is a poor substitute for how I want to be a part of this day with her.
Happy Rose Day.
26 February 2015 @ 12:44 am
All right! I think everyone is ready up in here! Ah, that reminds me, I completely made our room over. I went out again and got some rose petals, and I lit some candles. They're scented with lavender and winter herbs. Candles are so cheap in this country! All the bees, I suppose. Ah, I made it romantic, because I intend to have my way with you! Or you can have your way with me! Or we can have our way with one another! I'm open to anything so long as we don't come out for a while, haha...
I may have overdid it, after all. I just kept getting ideas once I was rolling!
... is dinner ready?
25 February 2015 @ 10:30 pm
Martha, Dragons Light and Dark, I'm so sorry. Everyone's had me running around all day like I'm their personal errand boy, and not the Prince! I haven't even had a chance to properly see you yet and let me tell you, I'm missing it.
At the very least, I'm almost done. Everything should be set up for our personal dinner, I think! Will you meet me in my solar in ... erm, give me an hour and a half?
26 February 2015 @ 03:53 am
I would just like to report on this lovely Rose Day that my wife is the most wonderful and beautiful woman in Eire, I am utterly bereft without her at my side, and I do hope she is having a far better day than I am watching all of these people go back and forth throughout camp, delivering their parcels and enjoying the company of the ones they love most.
Please be aware, Canti, I am tallying all these missed occasions and when our life returns to some semblance of normalcy I plan to make up for them in suitably grand fashion.
But for now all I can say is that I love you and miss you dearly, for more than any flowers could convey.